Breaking The Silence: There Is A Story Within

I was sitting in meditation and the phrase came to my head- “there is a story within.” Sometimes phrases pop into my mind either to render me full of questions or to leave me crying without knowing where the tears are coming from.

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HOLIDAZE: holiday gift cleanse

For the past two years,  being FUNemployed has given me the gift of not participating in the consumerist aspect of the December holidaze. I have opted out of gift shopping/giving and it has been one of the single most liberating things in my life.

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8 Sure Fire Steps To Combat The Anxiety Trap

I have been having an interesting month or so… The crazy has been coming out in full force. Here I was thinking I was a born again normal human in control of emotions, zen, calm and all that jazz…  Once you think you have it all under control- that’s when the Universe turns around and is like, “Here’s a really good one for ya! Take this plot twist!”

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I Am FREE

I move, I be, I do- all with ease.

I have been meditating on freedom and movement. Moving not just the body, but the locality of it, being moved and being able to communicate (how that in and of itself travels through the interwebs sometimes landing & sometimes just floating in the ether waiting to be discovered and unlocked).

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UnHealthy Work Environments: Petri Dish for Anxiety & Depression

 

It’s surreal to believe that I lived a life where “happiness” was brought to you by a little blue pill, calm was slipping a white dissoluble sweet sphere under my tongue and energy to drag myself through the day came from chugging venti skim lattes and red bulls. At the end of the day there was never any reprieve, I was still wired and dreading my tomorrows. This left me to drink a night cap along with one quarter pill of benedryl just to fall asleep and be able to do it all over again the following day. That was my life only 16 months ago!

Of course I had anxiety and depression. I only now had the realization hit me like a ton of bricks- I grew up with a paranoid schizophrenic father where walls were punched, doors broken off hinges and cops were called. To say that I had PTSD as a result of that upbringing is  pretty accurate.

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