How to FUND 16 + Months of Being FUNemployed Without Working

DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!! After many questions regarding my financials, I am finally peeling back the curtain and exposing the books! I get a lot of questions about financials but no one willing to foot the bills – funny how that works… This is such a vulnerable spot for me and hopefully this inspires many of you out there to take a leap or rethink your current situation. As I said before, take what works for you and leave what does not. Use the information below to synthesize a hybrid plan for yourself.

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I Am FREE

I move, I be, I do- all with ease.

I have been meditating on freedom and movement. Moving not just the body, but the locality of it, being moved and being able to communicate (how that in and of itself travels through the interwebs sometimes landing & sometimes just floating in the ether waiting to be discovered and unlocked).

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UnHealthy Work Environments: Petri Dish for Anxiety & Depression

 

It’s surreal to believe that I lived a life where “happiness” was brought to you by a little blue pill, calm was slipping a white dissoluble sweet sphere under my tongue and energy to drag myself through the day came from chugging venti skim lattes and red bulls. At the end of the day there was never any reprieve, I was still wired and dreading my tomorrows. This left me to drink a night cap along with one quarter pill of benedryl just to fall asleep and be able to do it all over again the following day. That was my life only 16 months ago!

Of course I had anxiety and depression. I only now had the realization hit me like a ton of bricks- I grew up with a paranoid schizophrenic father where walls were punched, doors broken off hinges and cops were called. To say that I had PTSD as a result of that upbringing is  pretty accurate.

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Dear Human Resources, I am Calling Out of Work

Dear Human Resources,

Things have been rather hectic at work. I am the ever dutiful employee. Never complaining, always smiling and seeing the brighter side of it all. I look to my coworkers and say- “we are a team- we can meet the deadlines, no worries.” The cubicles next to me are empty- I keep waiting for the replacements that never come. My job duties have increased but my income has not. 
 
Over the years, technology has shrunk and collapsed the line between my personal and work life. I find myself feeling guilty while I am at work and feeling worse for wear when I finally get home. 
 
I am never really fully anywhere- just a ghost of what I used to be walking through life. I feel this weight on my chest as if a little baby elephant has decided to have a rest. Every Friday brings the dread of a weekend too soon far gone. I dread Mondays…

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Surrendering: God’s Plan vs. Your Plan

 

Leanne & I recorded another video!!!! I have spoken about letting go of your own plan before (read it here)
All of us can agree that we don’t want the struggle. We plan on controlling, scheduling, negotiating and elbowing in order to get our own way. This results in a struggle and in this false sense that I am the only one that’s not making it work. This is clearly wrong. None of us are able to make it work by ourselves. Our way is not working.

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