How much is your Soul worth?

My mess in all its glory- G-d I bless this mess! Amen!

I am constantly having a crisis of faith (in case you haven’t noticed by looking around this blog). I ran across this article and it hit a nerve. My sentiment is that we should do what we love. There are plenty of others willing to endure the grind- let them have it! Don’t settle for meaningless four walls and big TV. You must ask ourselves -how much is your soul worth?
“We got sidetracked and diverted into these boxes, these cubicles in offices,” he says. “So instead of investing your time in a passion, you’ve sold your life to work for an uncaring machine that doesn’t understand you. That’s the problem with our society. And what’s the reward? Go home and get a big TV.”

Pyramid of society…
The master’s tools will never dismantle the master’s house.
I was somehow stuck on the what’s the reward piece of his analysis. Very often we sit in cubicles in front of computer screens not only wasting away but losing our souls. Being conscious that the joy that was once inside of us has now become a faint whisper. What is our reward? A paycheck in exchange for our energy, health, the passage of time that we will never get back in a job or career that we are not 100% happy with? This video is a must watch: 

It points out the difference between contribution vs. finding a job to spend our time in. It makes the point that we must invest our time in something that you have a connection to and are passionate about. 
I began to reflect- I had the courage to quit and walk out of these crazy job situations that were not serving me but what have I done with this gift of time. I have forged new contacts and connections but I still somehow feel like I have squandered it. 
I saw it as a great opportunity but at no point did I seize upon it to squeeze every moment of enjoyment out of it. 
I was home- perhaps I could have blogged more? Written a book? Set myself on a disciplined schedule where I exercised, walked my dog and meditated? What contribution have I truly made with my time off? 
I am here to confess that the behind the scenes of Mary Your Soul is a hot mess! You would think that I had all this time to my self but I barely walked my dog a handful of times, I did not maintain consistency. I never exercised more than 10 times in 8 months. I have not really been eating right. I had my apartment cleaned by my MOTHER. I cleaned once and spot picked up/cleaned very rarely. I now have clothes on the ground in my room and any visible surface is full of crap. My dog needs a haircut and bath. 
I have spent my money on events and going out to meet friends at breakfast/lunch/dinner. – well not spent my money but charged that Chase “freedom” card that has not really been giving me freedom. I am outing myself! 
What I do know is that I am not panicking. Which kind of scares me a little bit. I am afraid because the tinge of anxiety that has a negative feedback on my emotions is gone. I no longer feel a tightness in my chest and the sensation of having a heart attack.
I am calm and serene- I have no idea why (Vedic Meditation- could that be your doing?).
There are areas in my life where I still don’t take my own advice. That whole relationship thing alludes me. I Have been sticking to old habits and patterns that do not serve me. I am here to say that I still have not made the leap of faith in all areas. The fact that I am unemployed just goes to show that I am in maintenance and not in the stage of creation. It’s time to jump back in either with my own business or finding a spiritual realm/job thing.
What I am trying to say is that I was compelled to go to that article and testify that…
“I resigned from a 24 Billion dollar Private Equity shop in March 2013 & quit an 8 billion dollar hedge fund in May 2014. I have been retired from finance and enjoying the FUNemployed lifestyle for the past 8 months. I’m making it up as I go along but I feel a real push to motivate & inspire others to quit the rat race. I’m currently a blogger/Disruptor and all around cheerleader for happiness. My story and journey at
To earn the privilege of saying those words- it has been messy and I have been faced with many challenges. When you are cleaning a house it must first get messy and you must take everything out to assess what will be kept and what is just holding you back. This journey is not easy and I am still earning my stripes. I am not afraid to peel back the curtain. 
The road to success is paved with failureS
My happiness cannot be bought. I will not trade in my soul for a paycheck. 
There is no price tag big enough that can reflect how much this time in FUNemployment has given me. There is no quantifiable number dollar. I don’t care if I go into debt for a Billion dollars with debtors knocking down at my door and eviction notices- This has all been worth it. 
I can absorb this investment in myself. I am working on my terms and in divine timing. This is not only a work of self love- it is a work of a radical manifesto. No longer will I be diminished to some stagnant number in a bank account that is reflective of my past suffering.  I have regained my sanity, joy for life and composure. I am no longer afraid.  I can yell from the mountaintops- THE RAT RACE IS NOT WORTH LOSING YOUR SOUL!!!
We have lots of people doubting, self hating, unhappy, and sleeping THROUGH LIFE. It’s about time someone hit the gong and woke everyone up! There are so many things that need our attention. 
Everyone is different and not everyone is able or willing to take such a drastic step. What decisions are you making to maintain things “as is”? Is it worth it for you? (If you’re selling your soul- I know someone who can give you a good price…)
Are you willing to contemplate the fact that you can lose your job but gain an occupation? All you need is a little creativity. What have you got to lose? 

Love & Mischief, 

“Life is a flow of Love; Your Participation is requested” – Yogi Teas

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Living the Dream

This is what happy looks like…
To be quite honest, I don’t ever want to get a “job” the idea of a 9 to 6, Monday through Friday is actually a bit repulsive to me now. I can’t and will not do the rat race again. Like f*cking hell I will. 
I am in such a blissful state. 
I need to wrap my head around the concept that happiness and a job can coexist (though this term “job” will need to be re-defined to suit me). 

I love helping people and I can’t deny the fact that I was a damn good administrative assistant. What I now must face is that my path is unique to me and has potentially never been done before. I am blazing the trail and do not have anyone else to look to for guidance. 
I want to be honest with you. I want to crack open and allow for love to fill the little nooks and crannies of my heart. I feel feelings now. I might watch a movie and be moved to tears. I feel so blessed to be tapped in, tuned in and as turned on as I can possibly be. 
I have no idea what tomorrow holds but I know that in this moment I will take a deep breath and take a leap of faith. 
I want to do what I do now and get paid for it. I want to go to lunch, brunch, dinner with my friends – give them advice. I want to travel to far off places, such as Bali/Thailand/Australia/Anguilla/Brazil/The Caribbean/France/Santorini. Yoga, meditate and go to fun events. I want to share my knowledge (though there may be cursing involved at times ). I want to light the world on fire. I want to show others that there’s a way out of the madness and unhappiness. I will be like Moses and lead others out of the proverbial slavery that jobs have become. I want to make it my business to help others change their lives. I want to write my blog, books, maybe a film from perpetual retirement. 
I want to be unplugged. 
I want to be free. 
All the rules of the world do not apply to me.
Let me tell you a little secret – all the rules of this world do not apply to you either. 
Our birthright is happiness. There is a better way. All you have to do is Believe. You are here and you are worthy. 
How about if I never get a new job? I don’t think it would be that terrible… 🙂 I want to start a revolution. This happy crazy dream that I never want to end. 
In the spirit of crazy amazing things happening in 2015, I want to announce that the revolution has begun:
Yes, the revolution will be live streamed
I will be interviewed by my dear friend and soul sister Rosalie Tolentino on Tuesday, January 6th at 7:30pm ET. Please join us then for a live discussion of taking the leap of faith into FUNemployment and bliss. Hear me talk about my crazy adventure.

Love & Mischief,

P.S. (If you’re stuck in finance or from one of my old places of employment (Private Equity or Hedge Fund)- I invite you to listen in 🙂 Troll on my friend… this one is especially for you!)

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Marketing Yourself- Craigslist Job Market

After almost 7 months, I have been hesitant to jump into the job market. My past job experiences have left me doubting my power to choose a great work environment. This time around, I want ownership of the process and so I really do not want to go the head hunter/recruiter route(though I will reach out to them in the coming days-cast your net FAR and WIDE my friends!). I was perusing CraigsList and decided to post an ad/my resume to see what happens. I put up the following: 

As I looked through the Craigslist resume section, I saw postings from job searchers that reeked of desperation and cheap thrills. I decided to throw my hat in the ring with my awesome post that oozes cool confidence and says- hey I know what the f*ck I am doing 😉

I guess this officially marks me being back on the job market! WHOA that’s a scary thought right there. The Funemployed life is awesome! May the journey bring tons of stories and be paved with fun experiences.

Anywho- to all of you from past jobs/finance realm who read my blog – I do not envy your position ;p but welcome to a front row seat to watch me sparkle… get comfy, I have a feeling this is going to be EPIC!!!

Love & Mischief,

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On Happiness & Being the Life of the Party

It’s not about being at the party. It’s not about where we are, what we have or our environment. These outside circumstances are in constant flux. The reality is that many people chase that high- they surround themselves with material things, they go to all the “cool” events… they are those who stand on the sideline or have the Facebook and Instagram feeds full of all the cool stuff they do. They are busy documenting or observing others having fun and in reality they do not fully enjoy the moment. Happiness is about something that is deeper than this wild crazy race.

It’s about being the party. Finding the joy and happiness within no matter your circumstance. If you can tap into this inner mode of being- you will radiate joy no matter where you find yourself. You will dance to the beat of your own drum as if no one is watching… Those that do catch a glimpse will be mesmerized by how you sparkle. We will wonder how ever did you manage that. The party starts with you. You are the party.

An older gentleman showing the young folk how to RAVE.
Happiness is both a choice and a by-product of those conscious steps we take towards spiritual growth. Happiness is a by product of a spiritual practice- of how you BE. You must learn those critical tools so that when you stray or find yourself facing depression or anxiety – you can always find your way back home. It’s a process but time will pass anyway so you might as well learn to live with yourself. At the end of the day, when the DJ stops playing and the crowds have long gone – what does your behind the scenes look like? Can you face yourself? Are you happy? If not, you’ve got some work, self love and healing to do. No worries, we’ve got time. 

With Love & Mischief,

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Dehumanized Robot & "Slave" Needed at Rat Race Inc to Start ASAP

Are you one to go with the flow without asking questions? Do you major in complacency?
Business looking to profit off your sweat & tears. We feed off your desperation to get out of your current situation.
We want only top candidates to endure the following:
-Never being promoted
-Not being valued for your loyalty or hard work
-Use & Abuse
Your time is now our time- we own you.
You will come straight out of college with your youth in hand. You will exit tired, depleted & looking worse for wear having physically aged 13 years in just 5 short years
There will be group meetings without you where we will discuss what projects you can work on. We will dump work on you. You will have constant team meetings. There will be constant status report meetings. Impromptu meetings is what we excel at. There will be meetings about those meetings.

There will be special requests and projects given to you by anyone in the company at any time in the day (we prefer calling you at 5:50pm- please have that back to us first thing in the morning.) No questions asked- figure it out.
You are not allowed a full lunch break. Run, grab lunch (in under 15 minutes while checking your email) eat at your desk. Oh, grab us lunch while you’re at it.
You say you want a vacation? We don’t do that here. You have to earn your days off. First we put you through the wringer, then you can have a long weekend- there will still be emails to answer. Expect to be greeted with a faux smile and “oh, what did YOU do on your day off?” Prepare to be judged.
Our work environment will remind you of high school- the cr*p one you didn’t go to… There will be bickering and people complaining that “things aren’t fair”… Management will decide that everyone must be treated the same – like crap- to avoid this line of questioning… questions are bad.
Don’t dress fancy. It will be interpreted as you’re going on an interview and your loyalty will be questioned.
Forced work interactions- we will have mixers and out of work activity. Attendance is expected. You will be asked by all if you’re going in the weeks leading up to it. If you’re not going, they will request a reason. Grandma Betty better have died…
If you actually make friends make sure to keep it as a secret love affair- trust no one.
In the bathrooms and the kitchen, in the wee early hours of the morning, you will come across someone else… You will exchange a knowing look through tired weary & defeated eyes but no words will be uttered- we might be listening. We are always listening
You will have to sign a confidentiality agreement to work here- we don’t want our dirty little secret getting out…
Sell a piece of your soul- work for Rat Race Inc.
After many years of taking it- you will decide to leave. We will keep talking sh*t about you. How you just couldn’t hack it. What you didn’t know was that your story is one that has been repeated in many other Rat Race Inc’s many times before.
Compensation: You will be underpaid and undervalued- get used to it
All positions available – sparkly unicorn, receptionist, executive assistants, security, door man, college admissions, paralegal, administrative assistants, facility, investment managers, accounting, legal, compliance, Architect, payroll, research, IT Helpdesk, recruiters, Human Resources, Marketing, Client Relations, Bank Teller, maintenance, Web Designer, Writer, Author, Attorney, Personal Assistant, Nanny, Home Health Aid, Teacher, Project Manager, Hospital, Insurance & many others (please inquire)
A pound of flesh is required when applying for position. To view position on Craigslist please click here. 
Post by Anonymous – reproduced here with consent. 
Want to read more? On getting real with yourself- play a little game called cut the sh*t! 

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